i'm use to it

i'm use to it.
it makes no difference with or without you.
16 years in my life,
on and off you go.
365 days,
only special occasion or sunday i can see you.
sometimes there is no sunday too.
365 days,
how many sunday are there?
how many special occasion like birthday are there?

not more than 70


i'm use to it.
use to it that you're not with me
use to it to not call you ______
use to it to don't have a family day
use to it to have a life with and without you.

i'm 16 now,
how many more years i'm going to USE TO IT of all these?
i'm 16 now,
how many more weekends and special occasion i'm going to see you again?
i'm 16 now,
when can they know about my exist?
i'm 16 now,
how long am i going to wait?

sometimes i really miss you a lot.
how i wish i can tell you
"I LOVE YOU __D__"
but, i don't have the chance..
it slip of from my hand when i got it..

one is enough,
but there is another one.
who i love a lot

tell me,
what should i do?

another thing,
HIM
we are related,
next month,
his wedding..
next month..
should i bless him?
or curse him?
i should be kind,
i should bless him right?
yes.
I BLESS YOU.