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i'm just way toooo bored:( i look happy in every picture. i like CNY that week.. everyone still the same, everyone still together.. no one changed.we go eat, we go enjoy together, is like one big family. i like VALENTINE'S DAY that week, all of us so close, we love each other a lot during that time, prepare presents for one another, go out eat laugh blah blah blah, presents and all still with me and i like them a lot. i like the day before MYDAY, thanks for celebrating with me and at least i have a wonderful day before my birthday. thanks a million. the rest of the month till today, i can say is nightmare to me. many things sudden changed, i am not the same old kanliyun anymore, new friends came in to my life, old ones leaved. what i have to do now is really treasure what i have, i don't want to continue like this anymore, i don't want people to leave me. kly have to wake up and chee up:D and have to be more understanding. this year, i just have to understand understand and understand. understand everything that happens in life have its own meaning. understand lovey, understand loved ones and people around me. study hard get good results is my aim for now, i need help! S.O.S!! i scared i have depression sial.. these few days drink and think a lot. left with 17 days of school holidays and july gonna start already.. tomorrow is 12th june 2009 and i'm gonna rot like shit again. i love going seletar i don't know why. so peace there. rot at there almost everyday this week. i want go changi airport. i want to leave singapore again. still have 6 more months to go to end of 2009:D i'm excited. i want to know what will happen next.. why i'm not born in 4th april 1994, i jealous you know?! my cousin born in the date of these.. but not bad la, i everything 3.. 3oth march 1993. hmmmm, i want to find someone who have same birthdate as me, same day same month same year is the best, then we become SBDBF.( same birthday besfriend:D) so cooool eh? i'm gonna watch movie everyweek. 2 more weeks left is like wtf mans! friday already! later have to prepare to go schoool, i wanna kill myself by banging the wall. i love bang wall and die! hahahaha. not funny. kly is trying to be crazy so that she won't think too much. currently she is suffering from missing and thinking too much.. she wanna go brainwash and delete all those fucking unhappy memory in her life. she don't have a perfect, happy, wonderful, family. she just have to blame herself why come to the earth and make herself and people around her suffer. sometimes i feel like confronting my father, why? why he choose to tell me this? why? why my mum want him? do mummy love daddy? do daddy love me? do you love me?

i'm waiting for dk to give me science tuiton!
outings:D
this week rotting at home, sat, sun doing homework and revision
next week going geylang find guys and arabe street for sesha ( i don't know how to spell la) and go clarkquay drink.
following week bbq gathering and sentosa. and training and lastly kill myself. hahahahahah.

The Fray - Never Say Never
Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without and just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of, together all the while
You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Picture, you're queen of everything
Far as the eye can see under your command
I will be your guardian when all is crumbling
I'll steady your hand
You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time, time and time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
We're pulling apart
And coming together again and again
We're pulling apart
But we pull it together
Pull it together again
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go


Is this the moment
where i look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise
that you`ll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely
change even if i tell
you i won`t go away today
Will you think that you`re all alone
When no one`s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away
and everything is temporary rest your head
I`m permanent

I know he`s living in hell every single day
And so i ask oh god is there some way
for me to take his place
And when they say it`s all touch and go
i wish i could make it go away
But still you say
Will you think that you`re all alone
when no one`s there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
and everything is temporary, rest your head
I`m permanent
I`m permanent

Is the moment where i look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you`ll never see me cry